Tues DAY. One more to go.

Even Milk tastes funny to me. I hate that.

You guys know what a foodie I have been. Nothing tastes the same. Pepper & spices in the mos mild form feel like chemical burn in my mouth.

I can feel sodium/salt in a different way than ever before.

Now, somedays are better than others but I know its in the drug combinations & the way my body doesnt work right anymore.

This morning, couple eggo waffles with some fresh blueberries & a little syrup. Sound good?  EH!
Just ok. The sweet makes it bearable.

So yesterday I bailed. Signed off for anti anxiety island & prayed for sleep & rest.

It took awhile but mission accomplished.

Normally in recent past I have not been able to lie down. Well I force fed myself some more classic sleep positions. I woke a few times to cough up some hidden gems. I was in pain a few times & due to shortness of breath or palpitations or something I was awakened. I'll remember those & steer clear.

I was up to eat just enough to take eve. meds past sched but taken. I awoke 3-4 different times to pee. I considered that a good thing & not an inconvenience.

All in all I was up & down but I started trying around 300. By 5 I was well on my way & didnt truly get up til 6;30-7 this am.

I gave fair warning to the house & for the most part Was left alone in my battle for slumber. Thanx family. I needed that.

Now I need one strong day. Even a 1/2 day. I got Lee coming over to pick me up to go to the riverdale house. I can finally get some stuff I've been wanting & needing for a couple months.

Shaving kit & trimmer.
clothing. Tired of the same 5 t shirts.
Towels of my own.They dont last long with teens.
Tools
I'm gonna charge my bike & if its rideable I'm getting it out of there.(strength please Lord)
I gotta get some dog supplies & misc. stuff to feel like home
More pillows
Some insulated drinking glasses I have.
Forks & spoons. (dont ask)
I also got the cable guy coming to pick up equipment. But I bet they fuck up the timing & I aint waiting around.
I gotta check on & move the truck around to make it loo like someone has been there.
Definitely have things to do. Here's my chance. Gotta make the most of it.

Now here's the kicker. I take whatever appt the Dr.'s can fit me into. Considering my financials & what not it just seems to me to be humble & thankful for their graciousness & go where they put me. Plus I have learned patience better than most so I don't freak out or become a pain to deal with.

BUT!!!!!

 My arrival time for this thing is 1;30 pm. The actual cath isnt until 3;30 as long as everybody else goes to plan. So I could be waiting around awhile.

It also means my fasting sched & stuff is adjusted accordingly.

See most folks have their shit sched in the morning, all goes well, recovery time & out the door before lunch or dinner. They start fasting when they would normally go to bed & so no big shock to the system.

I'm good for my last food or fluid intake @ 5;30 am.

Do I go to bed early& start my day @ say 4;00. Get breakfast & meds then nothing for 10 hrs.

OR, do I stay up all night. Finish eatin around 400. Then go to sleep? Wake up groggy enough to ride to hosp. & get knocked right back out.

Which would you choose?

Either way there is a decent chance they will be keeping me overnight. But maybe not. Have to see how it goes. But that would be outpatient surgical release after 7pm. I've never seen or done that.

I'm preparing to stay. I'm preparing for positive surgery. I'm looking for to getting this part out of the way so we have all the info & can head toward the really heavy stuff.

You can tell the anxiety drugs from yesterday are still milling around in me. Thats good. I need to stay calm & focused to accomplish today's tasks. And hopefully gathering up this stuff takes my mind off of the other for awhile.

Have a Good Day.

PEACE!!!